booring

Such a lovely day today! I wish I could lie in the sun and just snooze.... due to the stupid internet connection i'm now in somebody's kitchen trying to understand meniscal tear. Oh dear. I hate studying. I really do! I feel sooo stupid when I study. The great John Nash said," Classes will dull your mind... Limits the expansion for creativity.." or sth like that, I don't really remember. I've noticed this phenomenon since form 3. Everytime exams come around, I will study hard and then realised that I've fill my head with knowledge WITHOUT a single form of creativity trickling through this hard noodle. Ergh, I hate studying. Who cares if I can recite all the causes of heart failure? ergh.( rebel against studying!) but I guess I'll feel better when I'm actually treating somebody. Oh dear..... I'm not as intelligent as John Nash,sooooo...this lesser mortal will continue studying.


Okay brain, I promise to give you some inellectual stimulation after this madness is over. Will finish Othello before end of June!!

oh and today I managed to play some songs on top off my head without looking at tabs..and they sounded good! happy day!

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bitter sweet life events

Today I learnt an important life lesson... and as the exam is getting nearer, my guitar progress is sooo slow!!! my brain can't take too much info!! argh!!!


Also, oh dear God, thank you for the wonderful miracle this morning. I'm definitely a better person for it. The wound would definitely heal. Will hold my head up high for the fact that I am a the bigger person in this situation. (me like! more spice to the process of maturity!) actually not spice no. They put hop into malt so that as they ferment to become lager, the hop give the sickly sweet stuff a bitter tang to it. Hurt makes life more interesting, varied and ultimately, you learn to enjoy life as it is. Not that I enjoy studying..... booooring!

Will talk about new guitar techniques soon!

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Bad Day

Today is a bad day. I've a headache.


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Haruki Murakami

Haruki Murakami, Haruki Murakami.... Think I might have a lil' school-girlish crush on him. (probably a lot!). I've read most of his novels and short stories and each time I finish 'em in less than a week. This is a person, with such great talent for writing that his novels to me are not just novels. They're passages of life from his clear albeit skewed perspectives. I've always felt so connected to each of his characters, more so to Midori in Norweign Wood.(just finished reading it in 3 days! soooooo gooood) What's the point of this entry? I don't know. I would really really like to meet him someday. I want to tell him how his stories have affected me. How brilliant he is (on 2nd thought, probably not. He wouldn't appreciate it) No i think what i want to say to him is that "hey Mr Murakami. I understand exactly what you wanted to say. And I understand what made you wrote those stories. You wrote adventures that you've never had. And in a unearthly way, I feel that I've been adventuring throughout Japan with you. Even going to Germany with you (like the female protaganist whom I cant remember her name did in The Wind Up bird Chronicle). You are just like me. I can tell. You wrote what I would write if I had the talent. Like I said, I understand exactly what you wanted to say...."

okay i'm off to ebay to try and find Sputnik Sweetheart!

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Don't sweat the small stuff

I bought a new capo yesterday,quite expensive but worth it! The 5 quid capo i got off ebay was definitely not meant to be a capo, it's rubber thing came off easily and you can't clipped those strings properly at all! They all sounded like a bunch of bees if you try and strum 'em. This one though, is very good. It's a little rigid and takes strength to actually mount it on the neck BUT it sounded so smooth..... even if you put it in the middle of the fret. The guitar goes *drummmmmmmm* just like a snazzy jazzy voicey.....
Dunlop Trigger Capo.


Apart from the Jewel songs i'm trying to play, I'm now learning Falling Away by Muse. Nice under-rated alternative rockish tune. Great song (of course, it's Muse) and will get there definitely.

Just a reflection to myself: DON"T SWEAT THE SMALL STUFFS!

I spent way too much time and energy on things/people/events that I couldn't care less. Life is SHORT! No time for whining girl. Get on with it.

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Joe Satriani

'Nuff said.

Desire

Teacher: Ok people, what is the single most important thing in life?

Student A: Happiness (Nope)
Student B: Money (you wish)
Student C: Oxygen!! (It's more theoretical than that, dummy)
Student D : Desire? Passion?

Teacher: (beams) Correct! Everything you see, everything you feel, all the small muscles in your body are only truly alive if you follow your passion, your desire. The world is but a grey slate which will only be turned colourful by people brave enough to paint it.

(okay...)

Still, at the end of the table, you hear the same warning, same advice, to not follow your desire too much because it's too dangerous.

Which one to follow?

I've lived long enough to be able to see that there are 2 kinds of passions in the world. One is the fast, strong and hot desire that makes you run just a little bit faster, makes you scream a little louder. The other being the slow, burning dull aching desire that makes me slave over books in medical school or practice guitar until my fingers hurt.

At an impressionable young age, I was exposed to Keat's melancholic world, and I often at that point in my life, envied him for being able to live life as it was meant to be lived.(if that makes any sense) His world is just so colourful, and full of stimulation to the senses that I really thought he spent an hour thinking about the ordinary mundane world we take in for 5 seconds...... (tbc)



From La belle dam sans Merci




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What is more painful than the thick calluses on my fingers?

Learning about this!!
ARA classification of Rheumatoid Arthritis

1. Morning stiffness: Morning stiffness in and around the joints, lasting at least 1 hour before maximal improvement.
2. Arthritis of 3 or more joint areas: At least 3 joint areas simultaneously have had soft tissue swelling or fluid (not bony overgrowth alone) observed by a physician; the 14 possible joint areas are right or left proximal interphalangeal (PIP) joints, metacarpophalangeal (MCP) joints, wrist, elbow, knee, ankle, and metatarsophalangeal (MPT) joints.
3. Arthritis of hand joints: At least I area swollen (as defined above) in a wrist, MCP or PIP joint.
4. Symmetric arthritis: Simultaneous involvement of the same joint areas (see 2 above) on both sides of the body (bilateral involvement of PIPs, MCPs, or MTPs is acceptable without absolute symmetry).
5. Rheumatoid nodules: Subcutaneous nodules, over bony prominences, or extensor surfaces, or in juxta-articular regions, observed by a physician.
6. Serum rheumatoid factor: Demonstration of abnormal amounts of serum rheumatoid factor by any method for which the result has been positive in <5%>
7. Radiographic changes: Radiographic changes typical of RA on posteroanterior hand and wrist radiographs, which must include erosions or unequivocal bony decalcification localized to or most marked adjacent to the involved joints (osteoarthritis changes alone do not qualify).

Must have 4 out of 7




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practice picking

Picking is soooo hard!!! my fingers are numb from all the calluses that have developed on the pads of my fingers. I even have a cute cyst like callus on my thumb ( which is painful ladies and gents). But still practicing, still getting there but not quite there. Also need to remember the rule of 1 finger for each fret, and not just depend on 1 index finger alone. One good song to practice picking, Where ever you will Go by The Calling, which incidently was what my guitar teacher told me to. I'm now learning Break Me by Jewel..not as easy as it looks!!!

*Capo 1st fret*

Intro and Verse (On the cd she starts in the verse
but live she plays it with an intro)

Intro/Verse

e|-----0--|-----0--|-----0--|-----0--|
B|-3-----3|-3-----3|-3-----3|-3-----3|
G|---0----|---0----|---0----|---0----|
D|--------|--------|--------|--------|    
A|--------|--------|-2------|-3------|
E|-3------|-2------|--------|--------|

*Live Version Part*---The last time in the verse she ends with

e|----2------0-2-----3-2---|
B|--3-----3-----3-3-----3--|
G|-------------------------|
D|0------------------------|
A|-------------------------|
E|-------------------------|

Chorus

e|-----0--|-----3--|-----3--|-----0--|*|-------3--|<---- that comes in the
B|-------1|-------3|-------3|-------0|*|---------3|    2nd and 4th time you repeat
G|---0----|---2----|---0----|---0----|*|---0------|    the chorus
D|--------|-0------|--------|--------|*|----------|   
A|-3------|--------|--------|--------|*|----------|
E|--------|--------|-3------|-0------|*|0---------|

Bridge-

e|----0-------0---||----3--------3---||----0--------0---||-----2----3-|
B|------1-------1-||------2--------2-||------0--------0-||---3---3----|
G|--2-------2-----||--0--------0-----||--0--------0-----||------------|      
D|----------------||-----------------||-----------------||0-----------|      
A|0-------0-------||-----------------||3--------3-------||------------|
E|----------------||3---------3------||-----------------||------------|

try it folks!

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