This is probably the worst day of my life. Although, saying that I think I am slowly but surely turning into an adult.
How stressful these past few weeks have been, and a lot of times I feel like I don't want to wake up (or I can't wake up because facing another day will be too much). But! there's no point drowning in my own misery, or stew in my own funk. And isn't God kind, in this difficult moment, He picked me up and nudged me in the Right direction.
It's amazing that everybody can rattle off the 6 pillars of faith, but how many can say that they truly have faith in all of the pillars? When was the last time you think about the Prophet pbuh? There's no point reciting mantras in prayers if you don't even think about what you chant. That's the problem with not knowing Arabic. It all gets too archaic and formal, and the true meaning of every prayer recited is lost. And having faith in Qada' and Qadar is difficult too. How many times have you questioned God about His doings? Did He make a mistake? Has He abandoned you?
He loves you that's why He gives you these challenges so that you will be thankful, and come back to Him.
Oh Allah, if You're listening. This has been a humbling experience, and I thank You for giving me this opportunity early in life. Out of adveseries, come out the best of human nature, the kindness I received is well above what I expected, and I never knew that I had the strength to endure what I had endure.
I've got five more minutes before tutorial. Obs and Gobs galore!
How stressful these past few weeks have been, and a lot of times I feel like I don't want to wake up (or I can't wake up because facing another day will be too much). But! there's no point drowning in my own misery, or stew in my own funk. And isn't God kind, in this difficult moment, He picked me up and nudged me in the Right direction.
It's amazing that everybody can rattle off the 6 pillars of faith, but how many can say that they truly have faith in all of the pillars? When was the last time you think about the Prophet pbuh? There's no point reciting mantras in prayers if you don't even think about what you chant. That's the problem with not knowing Arabic. It all gets too archaic and formal, and the true meaning of every prayer recited is lost. And having faith in Qada' and Qadar is difficult too. How many times have you questioned God about His doings? Did He make a mistake? Has He abandoned you?
He loves you that's why He gives you these challenges so that you will be thankful, and come back to Him.
Oh Allah, if You're listening. This has been a humbling experience, and I thank You for giving me this opportunity early in life. Out of adveseries, come out the best of human nature, the kindness I received is well above what I expected, and I never knew that I had the strength to endure what I had endure.
I've got five more minutes before tutorial. Obs and Gobs galore!
i feel like i dont wanna wake up too.. sobsob
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